The Almighty Skeleton

As I had previously written, "do you have something or someone from your past that you feel is just waiting for the perfect time to jump back into your life to screw you over?" I think there is someone or something just waiting for me to get to the top of the world and then slap me back down to Earth. When you let someone else into your life, such as in a marriage, you sometimes wonder if they have told you everything there is to know about them or if they are hiding something of their own. Relationship experts say there is not supposed to be any secrets between couples, but seriously, does any couple actually hold this truth?

Getting back to my past...I try so hard to think of people in my past that I might have treated poorly or did wrong by. I also try to think of something I could have done to help someone by ignored it for my own selfish reasons. I guess if everyone looks hard enough there is something or someone who we screwed over in the past, but obviously not conciously, well, hopefully not conciously. Of course, we all went through that phase in our lives where it was cool to pick on people just to make ourselves feel better. At the time, it might have helped but how much damage did we do to those we made fun of or were not nice to in the long run?

I guess I have to take a step back and ask myself how much do I care what others think about me? Truth betold, I do care a lot about what certain people think. For example, my parents - do care; a 3-year old -do not care; my manager - care; an annoying fan at a baseball game - care...NOT SO MUCH! Perhaps I can say that I care what others think of me if those people have a significant place in my life or have the ability to influence me in some way or those who I respect and trust. But then why do I care what I look like when I go out in public?? Why don't I just wear PJs out every time? Perhaps it is dignity or respect for myself. Do you care what others think of you?